it just seems like everything isn't what it used to be.

words fall through me
and erase me
and i'm painted black.

when all those you seem to have poured your life into,
time, love, money,
and it just all goes down.
to the hill of nothingness.

and i have to ask myself,
what was the point.

and i know it is You.

when all else fades
my soul will dance with You
where the love lasts forever.

and what goes through your mind?
when you hear the ramblings,
the noise,
the sound of machines and talk;
going on around you
in different languages.
the spice, the laughter,
the pain, the cries.
and you lie there
hardly able to open your eyes
to the world in front of you.
and the dullness of light,
movements of pain and hurt.
the gentle pressure that would not have hurt
but right now pierce your senses.
oh, the bliss of a gentle touch,
a soothing voice-
let that be mine.
of grace and love.
to a world unknown,
fierce and dark,
painful and despairing.
how i wish i could sing the songs of hope,
and maybe i shall.
to pierce that darkness and fill it with tenderness and grace.
a smile for every tear you cry.
oh let me be.

and how they say pictures can give u a thousand words,
but at the present, i cannot find one apt to say or describe how i feel.

what's the word for defining the difficulty in expressing how i feel?
i'm becoming more and more of an introvert.
and Lord, my faith is paper-thin,
my hope is dying out,
the wait just gets harder.
i am failing in everything that i do.
i don't know what else to do than to run into Your arms,
and embrace me quick.
before the hour runs dry.

the clock is ticking.

10:06 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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